As I sit here...

...ON MY TOILET! hey everybody thanksgiving wasn't as great as i thought it would be, but dang I sure am thankful for everything that i've experienced and received this year. I realize more and more everyday how gracious the Big Guy Upstairs is and how like everything He does works out. It's really funny how things work out, and through my short 18 years I'm realizing that when I'm in a "turbulence" in life all I got to do is trust in Him and though it may be hard God will carry me through it and end up teaching me a valuable lesson and help me grow spiritually and emotionally. Man, I love God. He is so amazing and everytime I think back on a time where I had drama or a trouble...it makes me realize that it helped me make the person I am today and its cool how God planned this all out. It's like one of those crazy big dominoes like at first you don't see much but in the end of everything you see a beautiful masterpiece revealed...and I don't know about you guys but that gives me comfort knowing that God has a great plan for me and each and every one of us.

my friends

I'm very thankful for my friends. :]

Everything is beautiful.

I mean what else is there to say? i realize more and more how much of God's magnificence and beauty I am immersed in. It's quite awesome. God is good amen?

Get Back Up Again.

I realized that everything that happens is a learning experience...no matter how hard i fall on my knees i realized i can always get back up, but stronger.I'm really super duper ultra multra thankful that God has given me this amazing gift of optimism...I know it's hard to believe but the first thing i did when i was put into this situation was pray and i prayed a prayer of praise and thanksgiving. It's super hard for alot of people to comprehend the fact that even though I should be crying and what not I'm being optimistic and just rejoicing. I know everything that has happened, happened for a reason and I'll never forget the good times...but slowly and surely I will move on. I hope me and her both grow from this experience, and that we both grow in Christ and through this we will both realize God's plan for the both of us. I'm glad that i met her and i know we will always be friends.But for now it's time for both of us to move on an become spiritually prepared for the future. I'm really glad that I'm super optimistic I hope that this trait of mine will be rubbed off onto all my friends and the rest of the world...we all need optimism. And i know I'm rambling but I realize that since Jesus came and died for all of us none of us on this earth should be hopeless...man God is good for sending His only son so that us hopeless people would have a little glimmer of hope MAN that blows my mind...ok well 'nuff said. To sum everything up God is good, God is hope, and life goes on.

quotes

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.

Anonymous

The End.

"you don't really appreciate something until it's gone" man...its crazy how that maxim is so true. I'm realizing how important she was...until now. I messed up and I'm reaping what I sowed. Today at church we had a sermon about going into the wilderness and going through hardships, and through no matter what I should always be thankful and give praise to God. I'm trying to do just that...but it's so hard. Hopefully God has her planned for me later on.dangit is all i can say right now. I really hope this hardship is going to train me for later on...and i know even though i feel so...lonely and by myself God is right next to me with His arm around my shoulder...i love you

Firey mess

Dang this weekend has been very...uneventful.Dangit jess THANKS FOR LEAVING US! frick. ANYWHOS i realized this past weekend how important each of my friends are to me, because if one is gone it seems like noone wants to hang out! what theff. but yea today was so wizack. It started out with my waking up at 10 30 and getting a call from my friend jeanna who needed help moving. SO i agreed and helped her move from fullerton to DB...it should've been a 15 min trip back from fullerton. BUT the fires....the fires came and all the freeways were blocked, not only that the uhaul truck we took broke down at a gas station!SO we called AAA and uhaul for help. They told us they would send a dispatch tow truck and they did, AAA told us that it would take 15 minutes BUT we suddenly realized that friggin all the freeways were blocked and all the local routes were hella jammed SO i spent my saturday waiting 6 hours for the tow truck. i missed out on fun today :[ frick. i hope tomorw is better...i really do. FIRCK HURRY AND COME BACK JESS! :[ we need you here. man one weekend without hanging out with my League of Superfriends feels like i haven't seen them in EONS!

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I'm really scared right now.

eh

i don't know why i made the choices i made...but everything happens for a reason. It's hard but I have to praise God and give thanks in every situation...but man it's hard. whatevers everything works out for the better no matter how sticky,crappy, and bad the outcome is. fml
OH btw i was reading my old posts...and i realized boy did i change ALOT like the way i talk my priorities and when i read some of the stuff i read im just like "wtf? i wrote that?" lol man...time really does change people and time has pretty much hardened me. I'm coming to MANY realization, i realize that I'm not as much of a warm person anymore...i'm a pretty cold person. i realized i can't befriend random people anymore and i also realized i look at the world differently now...ok guys NOW you must do that long list of ridiculous to gain access to my personal realm. if you mess one thing you get a jumping flyinf double kick to the neck. POW!

sundays

dang dude so i realized more and more how much of life i DONT have...right now it revolves around watching stocks(i own none) and video comments. I really do wish videocommenting on facebook was an occupation because like i would be The Chosen One of this job. but nope theres no way i can survive in life with this talent i have. Funny thing is people are requesting video comments LOL! man it feels good knowing people laugh AT me not WITH me oh well...it don't matter. I made a kid cry today, it was something over ridiculous too. He called me fat and saw the anger burn in my eye and he did a quick save by saying "Or is that muscle?" so i got him in a headlock and he started crying....i felt horrible especially because he was 17 years old. Oh well lol. But I'm really enjoying the people i hang out with currently...it would friggin awesome if my girlfriend was here though. Boy do i miss her :[ frick why couldn't NY be like next to CA? oh well but i really do love my homies and homettes they're so awesome. I was thinking...and i dont understand why the people who follow this blog follow it lol especially because like i see them almost everyday (sorry smeza i miss you!)and nothing really happens in my life! but even though nothing happens i see God's amazingness everywhere...it's hard to see sometimes but when you just sit in the silence and observe everything around you, you slowly realize that everything you're surrounded by ,no matter how boring it is, was all made by God and man that just blows my mind. It's so hard to like pour out what's going on in my life on this blog...because its so impersonal when people read about my problems.As of now I've no problems! I'm pretty content with life and I hope everyday is a new adventure and I also hope that I will be welcome to change whenever and whatever it may come and be. WELL this is the longest entry of my life and I will never do this again...NEVER so if you want to read more about what's snapping in me life...come in front of me and snort 3 times, do the chicken dance, do 2 and 1/2 backflips, bring me a shirt of mythril(dragonscales), an ewoks paw, a sandraiders sword, one half cup of boulder juice,three glasses of curvash, 7 teaspoons of Essence of Resanthumilong, and lastly master my secret ultra super mega covert handshake.

today

dang dude...to be honest I didn't want this day to end. I've realized I'm blessed to have not gone off the college because...my best friends are still here with me.Well, at least until summer ends...then my best friends go off to college. aw frick

dry contacts

dude...i love dry contacts because when i blink all crazy like people think that I'm winking at them. Talking about winking half the girls that i know...wait no 3/4 of the girls that i know cant wink to save their lives. It is so funny because they try so hard to wink but they just cant. It's heart breaking but so friggin funny. But i digress...i love regulating makes me feel so...regulatory. yeee i love water that is basic...taste so darn good. Talking about water i love fiji water. I hope the people who follow this blog...ALLLLL 2 of them (:[) get pissed off when they see this. I am in need of a life...right now. I want to destroy this one guy...actually two guys. Show them the true meaning of Fists Of Fury....they have no idea what is coming to them. Thosee *beep* *beep* mother *beep* *beep* *beep* Beepp*. That's right...radio edit. But anywho yea. Gn1T3 everybody...bringing that AZN PRYD3 thing back. <3 ">

OH BTW..DONT MESS WITH US...it is bad for your health.