love

i need to show love to everyone no matter what happens.

feels good to see the results of my working out showing...makes me happy LOL

hardships create perseverance.

addiction

i'm developing an addiction and obsession...it's weird i've never been so into it before BUT lifting weights and getting bigger is like fueling my life now lol i hope it dont get to bad but it will be friggin tight when the results show

people

it sucks to know that everyone in my life will fail me and continuously disappoint me...even those that i love. and i will fail those in my life too...maybe thats why its hard for me to open up to people now a days...idk why is it that people i love usually push me away and when i'm nice to someone they usually end up shitting all over me? i dont get it...maybe i should stop being how i am...be more closed and not as friendly. i gotta stop thinking so much...only things that make sense right now is God and hitting the gym.




God please give me a more loving heart...please?

dang

i hope my hair grows quick

you are who you kick it with

i realized it's very hard to be yourself and that society has a tendency to kill everyone's individuality. kill is a harsh word but you know what i mean if someone is being themselves people tend to tell them to stop being themselves and it gets me disappointed...(these are just random thoughts that pop in my head while i drive so just to clear things up i'm not sad or nothing)life would be so much easier if the people around you were more accepting. i think the worst question ever thought up EVER was the question of "choose____ or choose God" i absolutely HATE that question because i know the answer...and that answer is God and i know by saying that i will lose friends. it's heartbreaking but i know that its ALWAYS the right answer to choose God...i wish i was like the 12 disciples i think its so amazing how they were able to drop everything and just follow Christ...i realized that ive never in my life have had a consistent group of friends...but i am glad i do have consistent friends in my life even if we do end up doing our own things for awhile i know we always on good terms. talking about friends; what they say is true "you are who you kick it with"...