strange

hmmm very strange. lately i've been slightly socially awkward...sometimes i'll meet someone new or even my friends but i'll have nothing to say and i'll just sit there feeling super awkward. its been happening alot especially around girls. very very weird...i don't know whats wrong with me. i like to think of myself as a pretty social guy but seriously lately i've been feeling very awkward around people. maybe i'm going crazy IDKz!

changes

theres alot of stuff that i should take into consideration. like following through with stuff...i realized that when it comes to friends i always stuff but most of times i dont follow through. i'm glad i got some good homies who point out that kind of stuff to me...sure i hate to hear it but i know i gots to. maybe thats why i lost her...not following through. i got alot of stuff to change about myself and i know that i've been given this life to be constantly growing and changing. i hope that some of the things i've done doesn't push my friends away. 'cause i really like the friends i have right now...i need this group of friends to be consistent, i'm tired of constantly changing friend groups. i'm determined to keep these friends life long...so i guess since i love em imma change for em. dang...my bad guys
for everyone who i've annoyed or hurt by some of the schtuff i do...my bad.
thats all i can say...i've gotta work in following through. dammit.

dangit

wish i knew how to play guitar and sing like john mayer