wishful thinking

sometimes i wish things would never go wrong. i believe the saying is true "good things never last". i really wished they would...dang it.



i feel like im in that car...everything going sosososo fast. can't believe its been almost 3 years its crazy.

ANYWAYS chillin' with the homies lately and its been SUPA fun. so sad alot of them be going back to berkley :[ can't wait to move in to my APARTMENT BABY! and i've also started my apps for cornell and UOR. hope i get in...dang dude i'm a 2nd year already.
that picture is super relative right now

eyes

i gotta open my eyes...sometimes the best way is a slap in the face.
right now i feel like a drunk person being slapped in the face, i feel nothing.
i want to say it isnt so, SO badly...but truth hurts i guess. i want to defend the both of them, but it is what it is. I really wish that it is a big misunderstanding but i KNOW it isn't and i really wish he was my homie. sometimes the best way is a slap in the face. you can truly tell who cares about you 'cause they're the ones who tell you straight out. truth hurts but i mean that's why the people who speak the truth are the loneliest.

naivity

man...i'm not letting go
ever. it'll be worth it hopefuly if not, i can say i tried my best

hardest part

hardest part is letting go...but the most rewarding at the end

back home

man...what a blessed short term missions it was.
this year went by so fast and i think its ;cause of my attitude...WAY different from last year...just really sad it had to end.
i've been doing alot of thinking and sometimes i wonder why i do things i do...why i say the things i say. alot of times i do it and regret it later idk why...maybe its human nature.
i should be mad about what happened...but i dont think that person knows that no matter what i can never be mad at that person.
this trip was such a growing opportunity and im sure i grew immensly from it i know i did...it was a big eye opener too.
hopefully i will not think that missions is over. i really hope and pray i will seriously have that mission mindset and heart.
just im curious to what i'll do in my free time...





























i've decided next 3-4 years imma grow spiritually and mature and i'll fulfill what i promised to you...

feels good to be home