i dont understand.

feels like everyone i consider my loved ones are being so "eh" to me...i guess

destination:nowhere...NOT

why is that everyone's blog is the same in this period of time? "i'm going nowhere" it's really sad to see my friends so...down and out. it's even more sad when i know no matter how much i talk to them and cheer them up it's going to do nothing...but i guess theres are pretty depressing times...cliche as it sounds, there is going to be a brighter day and call me stupid and idealistic but everyone should try and find something to hope in and do something to change themselves and their lives. no more mope-ing and sulking guys...we all have the potential not to only change ourselves but change everything that brings you down. so everyone try to feel like you have worth, feel like you're going somewhere, and try to be that happy go-lucky kid again...i miss that. and i'd like to apologize to all my friends for being absent in your lives especially in times when you guys aren't doing well...i really am sorry.

miracle

dude it's a miracle that my face isnt swollen...i'm so confused lol WHY ISN'T MY FACE SWOLLEN lolol jkkj...it's a sad day i beat fallout 3. :[ starting tomorow i will disappear and commence project gtfoh (Get The F*** Outta Here) and it will be a pain but worth it...and i know for a fact things are going to happen for the better.

gotta work

so, i remember something my cousin told me when i first started university...it was something like "Motivation is what gets you started, Habit is what keeps it going" yea lol she told me and i realized it was her myspace headliner thing. But this semster i'm going to build a habit if working harder...sorry guys i'm going to start being semi-MIA 'cause i need to get the blood out of socal

zombies

dude frick i love killing them!

a good weekend

too bad it had to end :[ now the wait begins once again :]

skys the limit

I really like the song on my blog by Notorious B.I.G....makes me feel like i can pursue and achieve any goal i set my mind to with the help of God. 2009 is going to be a year of accomplishments and more change i hope :] hopeeveryone's new years day was as good as mind

happy new years!!

dang last year was definitely a very full year. so many things happened i experienced so much and i know all of that will be in my memory and help me become the person i am going to be one day lol i'm really excited to see what 2009 brings i've made 2 resolutions and i wont share them...well one person knows and you know who you are! but anyways 2009 here i come! retreat...man retreat was very awesome both of them! EM retreat was great because i got to make new friends and start the reconciliation of a broken one. man it was pretty refreshing to just get away from the world and get back to God. i really know what i gots to do now and this break has been pretty good but i'm sad that a lot of people are going back to school and i'm going to be by myself again it was really good seeing some people especially! but again about 2009 i hope everyone uses their time wisely because yesterday is gone forever...btw i feel a lot more relieved and free and i'm appreciating the family i have at church...i realized no matter what happens i can always find sanctuary in them.