people

it sucks to know that everyone in my life will fail me and continuously disappoint me...even those that i love. and i will fail those in my life too...maybe thats why its hard for me to open up to people now a days...idk why is it that people i love usually push me away and when i'm nice to someone they usually end up shitting all over me? i dont get it...maybe i should stop being how i am...be more closed and not as friendly. i gotta stop thinking so much...only things that make sense right now is God and hitting the gym.




God please give me a more loving heart...please?

dang

i hope my hair grows quick

you are who you kick it with

i realized it's very hard to be yourself and that society has a tendency to kill everyone's individuality. kill is a harsh word but you know what i mean if someone is being themselves people tend to tell them to stop being themselves and it gets me disappointed...(these are just random thoughts that pop in my head while i drive so just to clear things up i'm not sad or nothing)life would be so much easier if the people around you were more accepting. i think the worst question ever thought up EVER was the question of "choose____ or choose God" i absolutely HATE that question because i know the answer...and that answer is God and i know by saying that i will lose friends. it's heartbreaking but i know that its ALWAYS the right answer to choose God...i wish i was like the 12 disciples i think its so amazing how they were able to drop everything and just follow Christ...i realized that ive never in my life have had a consistent group of friends...but i am glad i do have consistent friends in my life even if we do end up doing our own things for awhile i know we always on good terms. talking about friends; what they say is true "you are who you kick it with"...

If we get to see tomorrow I hope it's worth all the wait It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

i find myself reminiscing alot...i really miss some of those days long ago. i think about it and remember thinking "i hope this never ends" there was this one week in particular...i think it was one of the best weeks of my life. every single day i hung out with a certain group of people...i think they know who they are. so much has changed since that epic week in 2007...and i'm glad how things worked out!!! :] ACED my tests tight my dream is almost within reach!! tizite
ps: DONT WORRY IM NOT DEPRESSED -_- i just miss the old dayss

uphill battle

sometimes i feel like i'm fighting one...also feels like sometimes the people i care about the most push me away. oh well, what can I do...nada. gotta keep pushin' on i guess

친구

if yall don't know what that means or don't know how to read it, it is korean for Friend. I know its super lame but i was watching a korean movie called 친구 and there was a line in it that made me think " a friend is a close and long companion". It made me think...do i have these kind of friends? and i realized that i do...and i'm glad i do. I'm glad that i have a small group of close and long companions, 'cause i know they'll be there for me and i'll be there for them, i mean there are those periods of times when you're super close with some people but they seem to all just drift away. But, lately i've been realizing more and more that there have been some people who have always been in my life and have seen every stage of me...y'all niggas know who you be. I really hope that i am able to hold on to these 친구's for the rest of my life..and i'm sure that i will.

homies

My parents always told me that the friends i make in college are the ones that are going to stick with me through out my life. I'm seeing that this true 'cause i really don't keep up with many of my friend from highschool maybe aside from like 3 people. I hope i make some good lifetime brothas while in university. For my friends from highschool...i still got love. It sucks that no one keeps up after graduating highschool, everyone becomes preoccupied with their own lives...and i'm guilty of that too. I was thinking and sometimes i wish i had taken some different steps in junior year...everything might be different. But i'm happy with how everything ended up...i'm sure its for the best and how God intended...this one song called Gettin' Up-Q tip describes errthang...they're getting up...listen to that song its tight.